I've thought about how personal to make this blog. I have three journals I am taking to India with me (thank you Holl and Karina. They will come in good use, believe me.) A part of me is tempted to spill out all of my frustration and stress I've experienced lately. I actually just deleted a post that was up for about an hour that just laid out everything. Three people looked at the site. Whoever that was saw a little (lot) perspective. Then I remembered all the people that could be reading this: teachers I've had, people I've dated, and friends I really don't know anymore. A part of me thinks by spilling my guts it will help me relieve some stress. Yelling in the car isn't a good idea, especially when the dog you're taking care of is confused out of her mind as to why it's happening.
So I deleted the first post and am reposting in a more simple way. Basically this is what it was in a nutshell originally: Am I ready for India? Will I be as productive as I need to be? In what ways will I change in India? Will I allow that change to happen? Where is my life leading me?
One of my best friend's older sisters once said, "You have never really lived until you have lived outside of your comfort zone." That can have a lot of different definitions. Have you lived outside your comfort zone?
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Wow. I JUST had this conversation with someone today and said something really similar. I was telling a friend that people don't really gain perspective on life until they've lived out of their comfort zones. I couldn't agree with that statement more. I think people step out of their comfort zones in lots of different ways. To watch how you travel and try new things all the time, I'd say you've DEFINITELY stepped out of your comfort zone (as well as going to India, obviously). I think mine was a combo of two things: moving to Haines from SC and moving to Tulsa from Fbks. Plus, for everyone, I think it involves putting yourself out there and meeting people and building friendships/relationships that maybe you wouldn't normally go for... Anyway, this is your blog, so I'll stop on that note. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing, Holly :) As my India departure day gets closer I'm starting to definitely feel more and more out of my comfort zone. Sometimes I think I should have just started my life in Juneau instead. And then I remind myself of all the other times I pushed the comfort zone envelope. I moved to Skagway right after high school graduation, moved to Montana 'knowing' one person, traveled by myself in Thailand and have jumped out of a perfectly good airplane. I look back on all the things I have done, and I feel so blessed to have those experiences. I wouldn't exchange the memories I made and the people I met for anything. India might just blow all my out-of-my-comfort-zones outta the water :) I don't want this trip to be about me. I want it to be about the positive impact I'll have on the people I meet there (I guess that's kinda about me?) In the process, I know I will learn so much more
ReplyDeleteKelly! I loved reading your post. I definitely think everyone needs to challenge themselves and get out of their zone. I think everyone does this in different ways: whether it is doing the chores they dread most, or taking care of a sick persons' personal problems. I think it's awesome that God has called you to experience discomfort at this level because it is the first step to growth. It makes us aware of what we have and how we can help change the world. I'm so excited for you and am keeping you in my prayers! (Tell us when you get to India!)
ReplyDeleteYou are such an amazing person just by simply setting foot on that plane you are doing more than 99% of people ever would. That act of faith in itself is an accomplishment...the rest is just icing on the cake! I know you will do great things. Remember, even if it doesn't feel like you are making a difference, you are just by being present in those kids' lives. The world would be a much better place if there were more people like you Kel.
ReplyDeleteI love you and you are in my prayers!
~Cathy Jo
Kelly,I so enjoyed reading more most recent blog. I am so excited for you and all that the Lord will be doing for you and through you. You are an inspiration! Much Love Aunt Julie
ReplyDeleteKelly, thank you for the updates. I am so eager to hear about all you do and experience. Right now I want to go eat some indian food after reading your post. Yummmm. The pictures were great. You are definitely treating us to being part of your adventures and how it is affecting your life. Happy Thanksgiving! Julie
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